It’s getting to be go time. I’m 4.5 days from my last day at my desk job. Terrified doesn’t even begin to explain how I’m feeling about this new adventure. The realization that I’ve been away from the farm nearly as long as I was there is a tad bit overwhelming. We like to live life on the edge.
Packing has started and it’s slow. It doesn’t feel like we have that much stuff but then when you get down to everything must fit in a box, then it gets real. A Uhaul was rented yesterday for the big day and another trailer should be arriving on the 17th.
My birthday is a couple days from now. As you know we’re moving to the farm. Changing what we’ve known for the last 15 years. It’s not that I don’t know what I want to do, it’s not that I’m not comfortable with our current situation and it’s not that we’re in trouble.
We decided to move back to the farm to keep a family legacy alive and to provide a farm life for our children. There is something to be said for hard work, manual labor that really matters and working alongside family.
When we were pondering the decision to move back to the farm my mom told me that if I didn’t know what I wanted to do with my life by the time I was 34 then I’d be in trouble. Well, it’s not that I don’t know what I want to do it’s that I never realized how much the farm means to me. When it was in jeopardy to be in someone else’s hands I had to think long and hard if I could live with that. Apparently I couldn’t. Over 70 years of blood, sweat and tears can’t disappear. I’m nervous as hell but when God calls you to do something; you go.
Happy birthday to me.
The Lord will fulfill his purpose for me; your steadfast love, O Lord, endures forever. Do not forsake the work of your hands. – Psalm 138:8
Unfortunately conventional is easy… one does not have to try to follow a conventional path. You have kids… they’re in school and busy. I think it’s just life. We’re all sort of coasting through. Maybe not easily but just coasting. It’s really hard to do different, to act different and be mindful of every decision we make to be certain it’s the path we want. Because it’s difficult. I’m tired most of the time so doing that requires a lot of effort and energy that usually isn’t there.
This morning I did something that I’m not sure I’ve ever done. First, I went for a run which isn’t out of the ordinary. Then took a shower got some coffee and sat in the living room with a dim light and silence. No distractions. No TV, no reading, no phone, no book, no nothing. At first it was really weird. Like my mind wanted something to do or look at… but then I sort of drifted and started thinking.
I thought about moving to the farm. Sitting on the deck watching the sun rise in the East. Working alongside my family then watching the sun set again in the West. There wasn’t anything in the middle but the sun rise and set was vivid.
Silence is so good! I love it and I’m finding that I have many distractions. I know the internet is a huge distraction because it’s accessible everywhere. My phone is my pacifier. I’m working on that… I hate it.
It was decided recently that we would pick up our happy little family and move everyone and all of our stuff back to the farm. My parents are wanting to slow down and do the things they’ve always wanted to do. My wife and I want our kids to grow up on the farm, with space, and with the ability to learn and experience life as we did as children.
This was not an easy decision at all. Angie’s family lives in the Black Hills and we’ve made a pretty darn good life out here for ourselves. But there must be a saying somewhere that if you’re comfortable and happy then it’s time to shake things up. So shake’em up we did.
We have a couple months before the big move day. So there is lots of planning, arranging, packing, moving, cleaning, and deciding to get done before we’re gone. Our house is going to be rented by some relatives so that will calm a little stress. Last night I spent an hour or so packing up things we don’t use or look at on a regular basis. Wow! It’s overwhelming the crap we have and don’t use. It really makes me sad that we or someone spent money and time on all of it and it basically goes to waste. I have nearly a full trailer full of this type of stuff.
We did sort through our book collection and ended up donating 3 bags of books to our local library. I’m sure I can find some other things to donate before we go.
A couple of items that must be done is to finish fixing the sheetrock in the boy’s room and also fix the siding on the house. Those are my 2 must get done items.
The old farm house we’re moving into should be very nice. It’s old but there will soon be all new flooring and new windows. Rumor has it that there will be an oversized 3 car garage built within the next year and the house will also get some nice new steel siding. The stuff on it currently is probably close to 50 years old and falling off. It’s smaller than what we’re used to at this point but I think it’ll be good for our family.
Proverbs 3:26 – For the LORD will be your confidence and will keep your foot from being caught.